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Today I have just felt disillusioned, overwhelmed and inadequate. I suppose it is connected to the fact that somewhere in the back of my mind a part of me feels like I should have accomplished more with my life by now. The reasonable part of me says - 'um, hello, you have two beautiful children!!' and I am aware of that but that snide little voice in the back of my head says 'yeah and what else?' As if having children is not the most important thing in the world (which it is to someone who always wanted to have children). Maybe it's because I know I've decided not to have any more children and now I'm getting older and they are getting older and once they are grown I won't have anything to show for myself. Which is ridiculous because I have lots of plans for the rest of my life not in the least including my art/career. But the silly voice in my head says I will never accomplish anything because currently I can not even keep a steady hand on my housework. Not to mention the plethora of things that need to be accomplished before we move back to Canada. Yeah, lets not mention that.  Finished the cake today - that's that out of the house.  I also managed to sneak a peak at the scales today and it's still sitting at 220lbs so maybe I'm off the hook this week and I won't have gained any weight at least XD

Calories: 2310/2000 

Protein:   72g/60g
Carbs:    304.5g/275g 
Fat:        100.5g/70g

Water: 4/6
Fruit/Veg: 4/5
Calcium: 2/3
Tea: 0/5